I took a little time going through some posts on this site last weekend. I discovered I had over 30 draft posts - posts I had written and never published for anyone to read. My immediate thought was - Oh Goody - I can use some of these to fill in days when my mind is not on writing!
Have you ever tried to go back in your thinking? Well this is sort of like that. I read the posts, and try and figure out what I was trying to say, or what point I wanted to get across... and so far I have been completely unsuccessful in finishing even one of those draft posts!
Guess you really can't "go back" - even if the older I get the more "going back" I tend to do!
When I was young, it always bugged me that as people got older they tended to reminisce much too much about days gone by. Guess what? Here I am doing just that with alarming clarity! It's not just me either, my younger than me brother and I can spend hours on the phone talking about days long gone.
Last night we were chatting on the phone, and as usual one of us brought something up that opened the door for a "In the old days" conversation. Believe it or not we were talking about fabric and craft stores. Sometimes when you talk about something from the past that you once had - it only makes it more clear of what you no longer have - like fabric stores and craft stores!
Thirty years ago there was a fabric store in every mall, as well as the larger stand-alone outlets like Fanny's Fabrics (my Mom's and my favourite Friday night outing). I spent a good portion of my pay check at Fanny's every month and it was always so busy there... so how come they are no more? What we have now cannot even come close to that particular store - and even if it had four times as much material at half the price, it probably still would never come close to that store, because Mom is no longer here to share it with me.
That is why when we get older we dwell more upon the "good old days". That is our best opportunity to remember loved ones who are gone, and the memories we made together... If not for this, why would we "go back in time" at all. After all, it's just memories, the time has gone, it already has been lived and cannot be re-lived - except in our memories.
I for one love my memories - I am happy to say my life has given me more good memories than bad... and yes, the older I get the more precious they become to me. I don't ever want to loose my ability to "Go Back"... so you see, the youth have it wrong... or at least I did as a youth!